This is not what i expected
Posted on Sunday, July 24, 2011 @ 8:47 AM with 0 comments
DO you even know what you've type towards me? do you know how shocked am i reading the text that you've gave me? Yes, I may be the fire starter. I'm not dragging this problem. But, in the first place, I was asking you in a nice way. yes, i may pissed you off by asking you that question but i was just asking? not accusing you or text you in a rude way. am i? you know what's the worst that i'm disappointed of? the second last text that you've gave me. if i control, meddle or whatsoever with your life, i'm sorry about it then. i'm just concern and care about you. but if i'm wrong to do that, i'm sorry. i'm just a friend who always care about my friends. if you don't like it and feel as of i meddle with your life, it's ok with me.
i've already tried to cool down the situation. i've already apologize to you and i've already asked to end this war. i know, it's easy to say sorry and it will repeat again and again. what else should i do? i know, i always pissed you off. i tried not to blow myself up because i know, if i blow up myself and you, yourself is pissed off, nothing will be settle. so i relax myself up. but still, it doesn't works. i know, it takes time. but, till when? till when i have to face this all by myself? throw away your ego, it's hurting me, you know that? this is the worst ever fight we had. and yesterday, i went to your workplace with AwesomeG and her boyfriend. this part is hurting part. you know why? you didn't even look at me. am i invisible? i didn't expect your attention or something but. i'm just speechless with your reaction yesterday.
can we end this war? can we? if you need time, i'll give you. if you need space, i'll give you. but what i want you to remember is that, You will never ever can make me hate you, no matter what. I'm just disappointed in you, that's all.
Had fun with AwesomeG and her boyfriend on Saturday. We went swimming at Jurong East. Swim here and there and off to her boyfriend cribs, then to AwesomeG place, chill here and there and off home. I love you guys, please? heh! Now, i wanna watch my Assalammualaikum Cinta ^^
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Will be M.I.A
Posted on Saturday, July 16, 2011 @ 9:10 AM with 0 comments
No words could be express how much I miss you guy. (':
Long time didn't update so let's start the story.
So yeah, school re-open but then enter macam starkarat, hahahas. School starts at 8am but i enter at 9am. See, how starkarat I am, hahahs. schools time-table has been shuffle. On Monday, starts at 8am-530pm, Tuesday 930am-1pm, Wednesday 930am-6pm, Thursday 8am-530pm and Friday 8am-12pm. Adoi! So yea, just now meet AwesomeG and her boyfriend up at her place. Chill here and there and laugh alot. And yeah, tomorrow gonna chill up at Blangla Park.
You use to rock my world. You use to be there for me when I'm down. You use to cheer me up and give me an encouragement words. But somehow, the atmosphere now is different, totally. No more cheering me up, no more being there for me and giving encouragement words. No more texting up and zombie words. I miss our lame jokes, I miss calling you my Zombie. I miss texting you up with long text. But, whenever I send long text, you will only reply short words. It's not that I'm expecting, because I know that you will only reply that way. But, i will only receive your text when needed only. But don't worry, you are still the same Otty I've known before. Your stubborn-ness is still with you. But whatever it is, You Are Still The Best.
"Move on and find someones else."-someone told me this. If only I could move on, I would. But somehow, I fail, I can't. I just don't know why I can't move on with someone else. There's something in him that I can't forget about him. Whatever happenings around me, it will always reminds me of you, although every single things that happening. For this one whole year, I still keeping this little feelings with me. Yes, I admit, I do be in relationship with someone else before, but I just fail to it. I don't know why, whats the reasons. I just fail to move on. But whatever it is, You Are Still the Best.
I'm not asking much from you as you know that. I do appreciate your presence in my life although it's just a friend to me. I know you have your own choice in relationship. I'm not your type of girl that you wanted because I always make you pissed off. I know that you want someone who doesn't make you pissed off. I respect your decision. Your presence as a friend to me is totally enough for me. I know it's just a friend, nothing big deal. But to me, yes it is! say whatever you wanna say, I don't give a damn to it.
"Tak message your ex-fling?"-someone asked me this question and I was totally blank for the moment and I was asking who? and the person say his name. I was smiling and reply back," No." with a low voice. As long as you are happy, I'm happy for you dearest Friend. (':
I love my AwesomeG no matter how much I have done towards her. I love her so much till I can't bare to lose her. I know that I've cause her much problems all this while and I'm the one who is to be blame for everything. I'm sorry beh, I'm really sorry. AwesomeG, you are my bestest G babeh. I love you truck fucking loads! <3<3<3
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HELLO!
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